do i have 'that' pervertic look?

i was taken aback with what she's got to say.
yes.. it is a SHE, tellin me err...
hundred million compliments EVERY single day!!
well, guess it's allr8 to hear compliments evtime you've doll up..
but even for the time u think that u look ugly?
[example: at home when u know nobody's looking]
it could mean either insults OR she's sucking up..
and she is my new maid, for god's sake!!
yeah yeah.. she compliment me like:

"y r just so hot" "beautiful" "sexy" "sweet" "cute" "wear something 'lower'" "you don't look good wearing T shirt, better wear tank& tube top" "you look bad wearing baggy stuff, wear something tighter"

i used to think its' normal... [tho' adrenaline-secreting, coz i aint sure if they were true..]
and i ignore her most of the time.. coz she is a SHE!
if she is a HE, then it wont take me so long to get the hint..
besides, not to boast or anything,
i got much enough that i wont even care for any more compliments.
and the time i realized something is MORE in her eyes..
and the way she touches my hand and do stuff..

from me to me: oh my goshhh!!!! XoX

yesh yeshh.. im so afraid.. i freak out!
but its not enough to say that SHE likes me..!

she's 18 and single, and so-so looking [but i bet guys outta there wud wanna woo her], sec 3 graduate and able to cook.. i dont see anything wrong, but yeaterday, mom asked her on what is so wrong with her, and she said that she find girls more interesting than guys!!
and she never find such a kind hearted& cute girl like me!
[for god's sake, im NOT boasting!! this is something a lesbian said to my mom!! so there's nothin to boast about..]
and by the time mom told me all these, im speechless. [juz knew it today]
i just dont see why are there so many bi being in love with me? [she's not the first/ 2nd] TxT

am i giving them 'hopes'?
well, i looked at myself once again and evaluate..
yesh im being kind..
to everyone...
maybe more to girls coz we can share more secrets?
and im a 17 yrs-old single..
but that doesnt make it; a reason for girls to love me!!

and today, a guy from her company picked her up to be switched with another maid.
you know what happened?
i locked myself up in my room, by the time i reached home upto now [when she's gone].
and ev1 said that she's crying, she's wailing and she dun wanna go back b4 she saw me for at least the last time, and mom caught her stealing my 5R photo from my room! [maybe she took it few days ago]
oh dude! what is so wrong with her??
let me clarify, i might be VERY kind to a lot of people, but im straight!
i like my girl- friends as friends.
guy- friends? well.. depends..

i do call my girl-friends with 'beb', 'hun-buns' & debla2..
we made lesbians jokes..
but it's bcoz we are close, so we did that!
we meant nothing more..

hmmph, well im running out of stuffs to write.
coz the more i write, the more 'emergency' i got..
so, cathca later! till the next post!! =)

*~yummy~*