. . forever apart . .

"Why is that so?!!"
she shouted on top of her lungs.
Looking from afar, she is an angelic face with lacy golden dress and a pretty,
big ribbon hairdress.
Zoom in and u'll see cold sweat strolling down her forehead,
wetting her fringes and dulling her outlooks.
She was loosing half of her consciousness
and her eyes were wet, staring at the ceiling,, 5 meters above her head.
for a moment, her mind flew
back on time she was ugly...


No one likes her& she felt like a looser.
No one notices her but him.
He gave her a motivation to live,
but it aint smooth like a cinderella story.
Pretty girls chase after him,
but all he said was 'i only love her',,
she was touched by his true love,,
yet she was hurt by those pretty girls.
It's not one, its four!!
Nonetheless, her biggest enemy aint those girls.
Her biggest enemy was herself,,
she knew she's ugly..
fat& short& pimply& dark& short haired& unstylish
but god has been kind for giving him to her.
but he was just too good, she tought.

He never tell her she's beautiful,,
but he treated her like she's beautiful.
She has nothing to fear coz he likes her more than anything
and that motivates her for giving something good to him.
She became an anorexian,,
a pitiful big fella,,
throwing up the food she ate and pretend that everything's allright.
After five months,
she's skinny,, and she thought, he should've love her more!
but she's mistaken...
With a toothbrush on her hand,
vomits on her mouth cavity and toilet bowl,
tears on her eyes,
sweats on her forehead,
he caught her vomitting in the toilet bowl.

He ran away..

In the speed of light, she clean her messy self& chase after him.
She found him sitting in the empty bar, downstairs.
He was depressed and frustated and trying his best to control his emotion.
She approached him with careful little steps, trembling with fear and her hands touch his arms. She whisper 'im sorry'.

He looked back and yelled at her face,
'you should be sorry to yourself!! cant you see how much i love you?? cant you see how badly i want you to be safe? cant you see i've done my best just to keep you safe, happy and comfortable? cant you tell, what kind of love am i giving you!!!' and he cried...

... with a low voice, she whispered an answer.
"u're just too good for me. im ugly, you are handsome.people are ignoring my presence, whilst popular peoples are after you,
in the end you chose me... im happy for that, but i cant bear being selfish like this,, i want to do something to you. I can see the disgusted looks on your friends face when u introduced me to them,, and i can tell that ain't perturbed u so much coz you love me. but i just want to do something to make you happy! perhaps by being beautiful.. that's what i thought,, coz i lov . . ." and she cried.

holding his anger, he whispered an icy cold reply..
"do you think you are beautiful by hurting yourself like this? how long have you done this? how many months havent you eat?? why should you love me like this? i just love you the way you are, dont you know that simple thing!!?"

both of them broke into tears,
him on the bar chair,
and she on the floor..
there are just the two of them in the empty bar..

the bar underneath their apartment,, where sweet moments are shared
have now turned into a tomb.
graveyard of their relationship.

The girl went back to China and the guy went back to Japan,,
the guy now has become unpopular and dull,,
whilst the girl became popular& beautiful& people like her.
nonetheless, both of them are unhappy..

a year passed and the girl dated 27 guys in a year,
but none can replace his place...
no one among the 27 is able to love her when she's ugly..
only him..
and she knew..
they can never be together...

forever.. apart..



===============
about the story
===============

heyho!
i was bored to death doing those works dad gave me,
yeshh yeshh, ultratrillion yadidadidadida letters,,
so i decided to write something at my blog,,
but nothing in my present life could be shared with the public
in this point of time,,
so i use someone's real life experience, exaggerated the story
and post it!
it aint the same with the real happening tho'...
but after i read it again....
it feels like,, i've read something like this somewhere else..

*cry* *sob* *sob* *grunt* *sniff* *take out hanky& blow*

hixx.... well,, if the story sounded typical... i guess that's kinda..
..
..
... true.. ;,;

but if u find it interesting,, well yea... im happy 2 hear that!! ^^
honestly, im pesismistic to hear good news... (T__________T)

& yup,, excuse my terrible grammar+ vocab, intentional punctuation errors+ slank, and morbid content..

ack! vanda's gonna kill me if i submit something like this for the english submission.... =='

well yea,,, tha tha 4 nw readers!!
till the next post!

*\\yummy_angelita//*